mandy

MOM I MISS YOU SO MUCH I DON'T THINK I CAN GET OVER THE PAIN OF LOOSING YOU I KNOW WE WEREN'T VERY CLOSE AS I WOULD HAVE WANTED TO BE WITH YOU. YOU NEVER GOT TO KNOW THAT I WAS HAVING A BABY THAT WOULD BE YOUR FIRST GRANDSON THAT WAS BORN A MONTH AFTER YOUR BIRTHDAY. JACOB WILL NEVER GET TO SEE HIS GRANDMA BUT I WILL TELL HIM HOW LOVING AND CARING YOU WAS AND SHOW HIM PICTURES.

MOM I KNOW YOUR BODY WAS WEAK THE DAY YOU FIRST DIED ON 1/16/2004 AND CAME BACK TO US BUT YOU STILL WAS IN A COMA STATE I KNOW YOU HEARD ME WHEN I TOLD YOU I LOVED YOU, AND THAT YOU LOVED ME THE DOCTORS ALL SAID YOU WERE A WASTE TO KEEP ALIVE BUT I TOLD THEM THEY WERE WRONG YOU WERE MY MOM AND I WANTED TO KEEP YOU AS LONG AS I COULD THEY SAID YOU WERE A VEGETABLE STATE AND THAT YOU DIDN'T EVEN KNOW I WAS THERE BUT I KNEW YOU WERE WHEN I TALKED TO YOU AND YOU SMILED AT ME I MISS YOU SO BAD I REMEMBER THE LAST DAY THAT I TALKED TO YOU AND WE LAIED ON THE COUCH TOGETHER YOU TOLD ME THAT YOU LOVE ME AND ASKED ME WHEN I WAS GOING TO HAVE A BABY NOT TO GIVE UP I DIDN'T KNOW I WAS PREGNANT AT THE TIME BUT MOM THAT MEMORY OF YOU TALKING TO ME AND TELLING ME YOU LOVE ME WILL LAST FOREVER.

MOM THE 8 MONTHS THAT YOU WERE IN THE STATE WERE YOU COULDN'T DO ANYTHING LAY THERE AND LOOK SO SAD AND IN PAIN I WISH I COULD HAVE TO HAVE DONE SOMETHING TO GIVE YOUR MEMORY BACK AND YOUR BRAIN WORKING AGAIN I ALWAYS HAD HOPE THAT THE DOCTORS WERE WRONG, MAYBE YOU WOULD COME OUT OF THE STATE OF THE COMA BUT YOU NEVER DID I PRAYED AND I CRIED AND BEGGED GOD PLEASE BRING MY MOM BACK I MISS HER SO BAD I NEED HER IN MY LIVE I FELT LIKE A PIECE OF ME WAS MISSING.

MOM I FEEL LIKE MY WORLD FELL APART THE DAY OF SEPTEMBER 18 2004 AS THEY TRIED TO BRING YOUR BRING YOU BACK TOO LIVE AS YOUR HEART KEPT FAILING THEY BROKE YOUR RIBS I WAS 9 MONTHS PREGNANT AT THE TIME AND SUPPOSE TO BE ON BED REST BUT THEY HAD CALLED ME THE NIGHT OF THE SEPTEMBER18 ABOUT 1:30 AM AND TOLD ME THAT YOUR HEART KEPT FAILING I SAID I WOULD BE THERE SO I WENT TO THE HOSPITAL THEY SAID WHEN I GOT THERE THAT THEY HAVE SHOCKED YOU SO MANY TIMES THAT IT BROKE YOUR RIBS, THAT THEY COULDN'T SHOCK YOU ANY MORE THAT YOUR ORGANS WERE SHUTTING DOWN MOM I TOLD THEM NOT TO SHOCK YOU ANYMORE TO LET YOU GO BECAUSE YOUR BODY WAS SO TIRED AND WEAK AND I THOUGHT GOD WAS READY FOR YOU I HELD YOU IN MY ARMS AND TOLD YOU I LOVED YOU AS THE LAST BREATH WENT OUT OF YOUR BODY AND I CANT BEAR THE PAIN OF LOOSING MY MOM NOT ONLY WAS YOU MY MOM BUT ALSO MY BEST FRIED MOM I LOVE YOU AND WILL ALWAYS . PLEASE TAKE CARE OF MY BEAUTIFUL MOTHER THAT I SADLY MISS

MOM MY DAYS ARE HARD TRYING TO LIVE WITHOUT YOU I THINK OF YOU ALL THE TIME AND I FEEL SO ALONE  HOLIDAYS ARE NOT THE SAME I SOMETIMES FORGET THAT YOUR GONE AND MAYBE YOU WALK IN THE DOOR THEN I REALIZE ITS FOR REAL YOUR GONE. I NEVER GET TO HUG YOU AGAIN ARE HEAR YOU SAY AMANDA I LOVE YOU. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN IN HEAVEN, I FEEL SO EMPTY I FEEL A WHOLE IN M HEART THAT CAN'T GET MENDED I CAN'T STOP HURTING I FEEL LIKE THE TEARS WILL NEVER STOP AND THE WILL NEVER GO AWAY, MAMMAW TALKS ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME I DON'T THINK ANYONE CAN GET OVER LOOSING YOU, KNOW ONE KNOWS   HOW I FELT WHEN I LOST YOU I WOULD LOVE TO BRING YOU BACK TO SEE YOU ONE MORE TIME I MISS YOU MOM SO BAD. I LOVE YOU MOM SO MUCH I WILL ALWAYS WILL.
SINCERELY,
 YOUR DAUGHTER, AMANDA MANUEL

Here is a poem I thought was about you.

There will always be heartache, and often a silent tear.
But always a precious memory of the days when you were here.
If tears would make a staircase, and heartaches make a lane,
We'd walk the path to heaven and bring you home again.
We hold you close within our hearts; and there you will remain,
To walk with us throughout our lives until we meet again.
Our family chain is broken now, and nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one, the chain will link again.
~~ Author unknown ~~